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By Dr. Bruce T. Marshall
October 23,, 2011
Readings:
Ric Masten was a singer/songwriter, a poet, and a Unitarian
Universalist minister who traveled across the country making
appearances in a variety of venues, including UU congregations. Ric
first became known for his songs and then later concentrated on
poetry. He called what he wrote, “speaking poems.” That is, they
were written to be heard. Of course, we can read them and profit
from the experience, but they are at their best when presented
orally to an audience. This morning in this service devoted to the
ministry of Ric Masten, I would like to begin by reading a few of
Ric’s poems. I do this with the disclaimer that I don’t have Ric’s
voice or his delivery. But maybe, having heard him sing, you might
be able to imagine these words as he would have said them.
A Tower
i had a vision once
of a tower
here on the shoulder of this mountain
and i went wild
with a hammer and a dream
but don’t be overly impressed
with those of us who build towers
any number of journeymen carpenters
and stonemasons
can tell you how to do it
the building part is easy
it’s the living in it
that comes hard
with some simple instructions
anyone can hang a door
but if you know the art
of oiling hinges
teach me
Ric’s work was about oiling hinges, attending to the challenges of
life in this everyday world. Among these challenges—hinges to be
oiled—were relationships, such as, those within the family. The
following is about Ric’s relationship his daughter and then one
about his children and his mother.
Ellen
my youngest daughter
likes to ride
to the mailbox with me
she fetches the mail
while i turn the car around
then she climbs into the back seat
and doles out my letters
slowly
inspecting each envelope
till i am infuriated
and turn red
and shout at her
Ellen!
gimme the letters!
my youngest daughter likes to do this
it is one of the few times
she has my full attention
Grandparents and Grandchildren
trying hard to understand human nature
i
having pacifist leanings
find my son learning karate
breaking bricks with his bare hands
so that he could kill a man in two seconds
he says smiling
as i go up the wall
and i
being the son of militant ex-Catholic
atheist parents
get myself ordained a minister
much to the disgrace of my old mother
whose reedy voice calls me on the phone…
Ricky!—she squawks
you’re not gonna let them
put Reverend in front of your name
in the phone book are you?
now
i suppose
all this explains
why the grandparents and the grandchildren
usually get along so well
they have a common enemy
Finally, a poem about the human condition, which is the ultimate
theme of all Ric’s poetry: the conditions of this life in which we
find ourselves.
The Wasp Nest
it held my attention
like the ash on the end of Grandfather’s cigar
taking shape slowly the way some poems do
the mind flying to and from it
unable to leave it alone
it hung in the eaves
on the northeast corner of the house
a small grey planet
inhabited
industrious
a paper-mache world parallel to mine
benign
until the child was stung
coexistence is no longer possible
hissed the canister
breathing violence
into the cells of this geodesic dome
and from deep within the abbey
a choir of small voices swelled
in a final
angry
ooooommmmmmmm
a sound that clutched the evening air
like a hand sinking in a pool of silence
next morning I took a broom
and once again
the Hindenburg came down
like a cardboard head spilling its beaded brains
then sweeping up and burning the remains
I had intended to put the incident away
and would have
were it not for that tiny starship
coming in from a distant exploration
returning to the place where earth had been
and I could do nothing but sit at my window
my God’s eye
watching the lone survivor cling to the moorings
having only himself now
as proof of something more
hanging on somehow
till the darkness took him
the wasp
who knew what it was to be human
Sermon
This past summer I came across a biography of Ric Masten, written by
a colleague of mine—Steve Edington, who is minister of the Unitarian
Universalist Church of Nashua, New Hampshire. It’s a fairly recent
book, published in 2007, a year before Ric died. At the beginning,
Steve notes a certain demarcation along age lines among Unitarian
Universalists in their response to Ric. Mention him to longtime UUs
who are say, in their fifties or above, and they are likely to light
up—“Oh, Ric Masten, yes, I heard him. He was great!” But among those
younger, the response is likely to be more vague. Those who know his
name at all might make an association with Let It Be A Dance, but
that would be about it.
Ric represented a certain era. It was the time of the counter
culture when throughout our society assumptions about how we are to
live were being questioned, alternatives sought; it seemed that
society was on the cusp of a new way of being, led by young people,
artists and musicians, social change advocates, those who dropped
out of the rat race to find a truer way to live. In Unitarian
Universalism, we inherited a fine and free faith that had made
significant contributions in the realms of social justice and in
modernizing theological thought, but it was a little dry,
emotionally detached, super-rational. We too sought ways to break
free, engage the whole person. We too desired to live more openly,
more honestly, more intensely. We wanted our faith to engage not
just our minds but our hearts, emotions, our fears, our desires, our
yearning for beauty as well as the terrors and the regrets that keep
us awake at night.
Into this context walked Ric Masten: not your typical Unitarian
Universalist minister but one who spoke to us at the time. He came
bringing songs and poems, laughter as well as encouragement to
address our pain, hope in the midst of struggle and moments when he
made us pause, become quiet, realize “oh yes—he’s talking about
something I have experienced, something I know but did not quite
have the words for.”
I met Ric twice, both times when I served the Unitarian Universalist
Fellowship of Huntington, New York, on Long Island. His reputation
had preceded him. In a previous visit, before I was there, the
congregation had been so taken by Let It Be A Dance that an
impromptu kanga line formed, twisting its way through the sanctuary.
That didn’t happen the times I saw him, but Ric had a singular
presence. Some people really get poetry, and for them it is pleasure
and joy. Others of us tend to struggle so we might approach a poetry
reading as something we really ought to do because it’s likely to be
good for us. “Verbal spinach,” you might say.
But Ric had the art of entertaining his audience, engaging those
present, and at the same time offering insights that address our
experience. Consider this one that comes back to me often because it
captures what happens with many couples—particularly married
couples—at a certain stage in their lives together.
Coming and Going
I have noticed
that men
somewhere around forty
tend to come in from the field
with a sigh
and removing their coat in the hall
call into the kitchen
you were right
Grace
it ain’t out there just like you’ve always said
and she
with the children gone at last
breathless
putting her hat on her head
the hell it ain’t!
coming and going
they pass
in the doorway
Ric died three years ago, after a nine-year battle with prostate
cancer. Today his books are mostly out of print. At General Assembly
this past June, there was a stack of them on the sale rack, heavily
discounted. He produced 13 records of songs and poetry and 18 books,
but it’s hard to find them, even with the Internet as a resource.
And yet in his time, he was such a vital presence. I wanted to look
back, consider his work from the perspective of not so many years,
see if they might yet speak to us.
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Ric Masten was born and raised in Carmel, California. His father, a
newspaper publisher, died unexpectedly when Ric was twelve. His
mother, with whom Ric had an ongoing conflicted relationship,
remarried an optometrist. Her goal for her son was that he also
become an optometrist. But Ric was unfit for formal schooling,
subject to an undiagnosed severe dyslexia as well as hearing loss.
He flunked out of four colleges and left a fifth, gathering D’s and
F’s in every subject but art.
That apparent failure opened doors that led him to his true
vocation. He later reflected, “It’s a good thing they didn’t have
spell-check back then, because I would have been locked up in life
as an optometrist.” In that we have a theme of Ric’s life and his
work: that apparent failure, even tragedy, opens doors that might
have otherwise remained closed.
Ric began writing and producing musical comedies. But then rock ‘n
roll appeared on the scene, and he turned to song writing. He was on
contract with Warner Brothers, wrote 92 songs with titles such as
“Teen-Age Creature,” and “Baby, Baby, Baby, You’re a Thinkin’ Man’s
Girl.” These were not big hits. At about the same time he met and
married an aspiring actress, Billie Barbara Bolton. Billie Barbara
became Ric’s life companion and inspiration and fellow writer, but
theirs was not always an easy life together. She wrote, “As his
constant companion, I haven’t always been happy but I’ve never been
bored, always as many laughs as tears.”
It was the mid-60s and Ric was an aspiring folk singer, as was just
about everybody else during that era. He and Billie Barbara had
started a family that would eventually include four children. But
there was something unsettled inside that led them to start
investigating churches. He had grown up in a family without any
religious involvement: his mother was an ex-Catholic who was still
angry at the church. Billie Barbara had come from a household that
attended fundamentalist churches. They didn’t have much background
to draw upon so their method for visiting churches was to proceed
alphabetically, starting with the “A’s” in the Yellow Pages,
dragging the kids to a new Sunday School each week.
So there they were one Sunday, sitting in the car, scanning the
religion page of the newspaper in search of directions to the
Methodist church, having worked their way down to the “M’s.” Then an
ad for the Unitarian Universalist Church in Monterey caught Ric’s
eye. The sermon for the day was, “Are We Actors or Are We Authors?”
Ric was intrigued so they skipped the Methodists and went to the UUs
instead. In his sermon, the minister didn’t answer the question he
raised, but Ric said, “I got it that his point was to make us think
on the question for ourselves rather than hand us The Answer. We
become UUs that day.”
As a church member, Ric’s skills as a songwriter and performer
attracted attention, and he began giving programs to his home
church, then to others in the area which led to his being sponsored
by the UUA to appear in churches and on college campuses nationwide.
He was taking the role of a minister, offering inspiration and
healing, sharing good news that exited and invigorated people. And
the thought came to him, “Why couldn’t I be a Unitarian Universalist
minister?”
Well, the answer was obvious why he couldn’t be a Unitarian
Universalist minister. He had no theological school degree; he had
no college degree; he was not serving a specific church. Actually,
if Ric had applied to be fellowshipped as a minister to the
Unitarians before the merger of the Unitarians and the Universalists,
chances are he would have gotten nowhere, given the Unitarian
emphasis on an educated ministry. But from the Universalist side,
there was the tradition of the circuit riding preacher, who went
from place to place, gathering a congregation wherever he went.
Which is what Ric was doing in what came to be called his troubadour
ministry. After a lot of struggle and maneuvering, Ric was granted
fellowship, that is to say, recognition as a Unitarian Universalist
minister. He was the first minister in Unitarian history without a
college degree. He was also the first in what was to become a new
category of UU ministry, today known as the “community ministry,” of
those who do ministry in various realms outside of serving a church.
In the course of Ric’s career, he appeared at over 500 UU
congregations, surely more than anyone else before or since. In
addition he presented programs on over 400 college campuses plus
elementary schools, high school commencements, civic and business
clubs, and the White House Conference on Children. Throughout his
career, this troubadour minister presented programs in every state
but North Dakota and Alaska.
My memory of Ric is that of a joyful, funny, upbeat presence. He was
always interesting, could get an audience up and dancing and feeling
like it’s the most natural thing in the world. But as I return to
his work, what I realize is how fearless he was in exploring the
dark corners of his life which included periods of despair and
suicidal impulses. He didn’t enter these expeditions simply for the
sake of learning the nature of the landscape. Rather, he seemed
driven by a faith that even in life’s most difficult circumstances,
he would encounter something life-affirming, transforming, hope
albeit sometimes a tough hope.
A Kind of Hope
i guess you’d call him a revolutionary
but he laughed real laughter
and when he was quiet his eyes were sad
so i hung around and listened to him talk
he said
we have broken the ocean beyond repair
the crabs are leaving
we will soon follow
he said
we live in an insane asylum
where the sensitive go insane
that is to say go sane
and then must kill the pain
with pill and needle
he said
the next time the conquering heroes arrive
the future is gone in a nuclear flash
he said
and there is no time left for the corn
to grow
but the fact that he bothered to get out of bed
this morning and say it gives me
a kind of hope.
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Ric’s signature song was Let It Be A Dance. It’s a song that gets
congregations up and moving, and seems on first glace a light and
joyful song. He tells the story about how it came to be.
“It was one of those horrendous tragedies that happen in the
American high schools every 4 or 5 years. This particular incident
took place one December at Carmel High School. A first-year teacher,
Sharon Elliot, offered a course on modern dance, and had 14 young
women and men performing like Broadway professionals. My two oldest
daughters took the class and were a regular part of the troupe.
During Christmas vacation, Sharon saw that a famous ensemble out of
New York City was performing in San Jose, about 80 miles from
Carmel. She called up all her students and said that if they were
willing to be crowded during the journey they could go up to San
Jose in her VW bus. Both of my daughters wanted to go in the worst
way but had other holiday engagements scheduled.
“As the carload of dancers was rounding a corner on the way home, a
drunk driver who had pulled over to the side of the road decided to
pull back onto the highway without looking behind him. The VW bus
crashed headlong into his car, killing the two front seat
passengers, one of whom was the teacher, and a back seat passenger.
All the other girls and boys in the back seats were seriously
injured.
“One of those injured was Barbara Brussell, my daughter Jerri’s best
friend at the time. Her sister Bonnie was one of the passengers who
got killed. Barbara’s kneecap was so badly damaged that the doctor
doubted if she would ever walk again without a cane, let alone
dance. My family and I visited Barbara in the hospital where I made
a bet with her. I wagered that she would come dancing up our Big Sur
dirt road exactly one year from that day. And what’s more, I would
write the music that she would be dancing to.
“The following week, while working in my garden, the entire song
arrived. I ran to the house and wrote the lyrics down as fast as I
could type. Better still, the words came along with a melody.
Barbara Brussell, now a well known cabaret singer in New York City,
did come dancing our country road exactly a year to the day after
the accident, with me singing and playing, Let It Be A Dance.
Barbara was limping, it’s true—but DANCING!”
And so was born the essential metaphor for Ric’s ministry: we dance.
Even when things don’t work out as we want them to, even when there
is tragedy, even in the face of death, we dance. In defiance of
whatever would compromise our spirit, in affirmation of life itself,
we dance. “Through the good times and the bad times too, let it be a
dance.”
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Ric’s ability to dance his own life was severely challenged in 1999
when he was diagnosed with advanced, inoperable prostate cancer.
Characteristically, he addressed this new unwelcome reality in his
life through poetry.
Elephants is the name of one such poem.
upon diagnosis i was informed
i was “inoperable, incurable, terminal”
blunt lumbering thoughts
immense as elephants
and “Don’t go there!”
is like being told not to think about elephants
while lying among them trying to sleep
so like the five blind men
describing an elephant
“a tree, a rope, a kite, a spear, a hose”
just so
i ran my shocked and frightened mind
along the big “C” beast
to understand what i was feeling
Gleason, PSA, neuroendocrine,
carcinoma, palliative
mysterious aspects of the monstrous thing
the Prostate Cancer Self-Help Group
meets the first Wednesday of the month
and why i didn’t go at first who knows
i only know that till
i dragged my butt through that door
and joined my compatriots
i was utterly alone
and it was elephants elephants
elephants
night after night all night long
i must say it seems absurd
that it took so long to learn
about strength in numbers
and in gathering together
the elephant herds are driven away
Before being diagnosed, Ric had written a poem in which he defined
how he wanted to die. He called it the “poor devil” death, drawn
from countless westerns in which the victim gets caught by a bullet
or an arrow from the side and goes down immediately. Bystanders
gather around and say, “Poor devil. Never knew what hit him.” That
is, Ric hypothesized that the best death was one that cut you down
while doing something else—dancing, perhaps—sparing you the
knowledge of what was to come.
But when confronted with the slow long walk that was to be his fate,
Ric changed his mind. He came to consider himself lucky. He said
that his real life began upon diagnosis with terminal cancer. In one
of his poems he observed:
how much fuller
richer and pleasing life becomes
when you are lucky enough
to see the arrow coming
He observed further, “This is a culture where everyone knows they’re
going to die, but too few believe it, because if they did, they
wouldn’t treat each other the way they do.”
Now he added a new congregation to his ministry: the congregation of
men afflicted with prostate cancer. He went on tour, bringing his
songs and poems and message of hope, which was not necessarily that
those hearing him would be cured but that they would live their
lives to the fullest in the time that was given to them. In
recognition of Ric’s contributions, the National Prostate Coalition
named him the “Poet Laureate of Prostate Cancer.”
This poem is entitled Me and Pancho Villa
approaching 80
with a life-threatening disease
the conversation with my peers
often steers itself toward death
not morbidly but with a natural curiosity
of course
everyone works it out in their own way
“Whatever helps you through the night”
I always say
“Just as long as you don’t come after me with it!”
true believers are off to roll around heaven all day
the reincarnation bunch have round-trip tickets
which is okay as long as I don’t have
to remember this one
the eternity that preceded my conception
is moot so why fret about
a return to that non-threatening state?
the anxiety
I do have around death has more to do
with being forced to leave the movie
while it’s still playing
considering my demise
brings to mind a photograph
of the bandit Pancho Villa
sombrero pushed back—posing for the camera
cartridge belts crossing his chest
here and there a round missing
how did he spend them
were they put to good use
on a hunt—in a fight
or fired aimlessly into the air?
the concern here is my bandoleer
the shells I have left to fire
before I retire to that long, long dark
I fear I might spend these precious days
missing the mark
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Let It Be A Dance is #311 in our hymnal. There’s an error in how it
is printed. Why don’t you take a hymnal and turn to 311. This is a
four-page hymn; you have to go to the third page. Down at the
bottom, third verse, bottom line. “Share the laughter, bear the
pain.” That’s where the error is: anybody spot it?
The word, “bear,” is a misspelling. It’s grammatically correct:
“bear the pain, endure the pain.” But that’s not what Ric meant. He
wrote it as “bare the pain,” B-A-R-E the pain. That is, disclose the
pain, reveal the pain, let it show. Because that’s where the healing
comes: don’t just endure it, express it. In Ric’s words, “We must
learn not to bear (b-e-a-r) the pain—not to keep it bottled up
inside. Rather we should bare it (b-a-r-e)—share it, bring it into
community, unburden ourselves of the sorrow and pain that come with
life.”
When Ric appeared at a congregation, he would point out the error in
the hymnal and ask people to take pen in hand and correct the
mistake. That way, not only would it be right, but there was
evidence that he had visited that particular congregation.
Now, I’m just an interim minister; I can’t advise you to deface your
own hymnals. But if any of you should choose of your own volition to
make that correction, I am certain that the spirit of Ric Masten
would smile upon us all.
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